Hello 2010!

Can't believe my last post was in 2006!
I was reading through all my posts here and amazed on how long I have stopped writing.
Well, hope I can get my writing skill back and work on this blog again soon.

Shanghai, 2010

Merry Christmas!!!

The time of the glorious season is coming again! Yaaayyy...
I always love this time of year. =)
Wishing you all a very very very Merry Christmas!!!!

XOXO,
me! =P

please don't give up..

You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up; it's just the weight of the world
When you're heart's heavy I, I will lift it for you
Don't give up because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you I, I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up because you are loved
Don't give up, it's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside I, I'll be there to find you
Don't give up because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I, I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up because you are loved; You are loved
Don't give up, it's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved

by Josh Groban

Lyric is taken from: http://www.onlylyrics.com/print.php?id=1001691
Video is taken from: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1FRpf7NyXU

my favorite song this week!

when was the last time you hugged someone?

Me? It was last week. When one of my colleague in the office mentioned about her dream the night before. She dreamed of seeing her mom. She lost her (and her dad) a couple of years earlier, I guess. She said in her dream, she slept with her mom. She said she misses her so much. And, when I turn my head, her eyes started getting wet. I asked her right away, "You miss her so much, huh?" She just nod, and tears started falling down from her eyes. Not knowing what else to do, I just hug her. Try to calm her down. Not daring to say anything, because I can only imagine her feeling, but I don't know how the feeling is exactly like. Still having both parents (which I'm so grateful for), I choose to stay in silent and hold her.

I'm sure she misses you too, Ki. But, she's in a good place now. And, so are you. =)

it's about knowing and getting what you want in life

"Saying the words doesn't make it so."
-Step Up the movie-

Yep! That's right, whatever words come out from your mouth won't change anything without... an action. I watched that movie with some friends last weekend. Nice story, great coreo and dancers!

Anyways, I had a serious talk with my folks last night about my plan to study Mandarin in China. I've once mentioned about it to them quite a long time ago, but back then, they don't really agree with the idea of letting me go to study abroad. Not only because they worried, but it's about financial too.

Yet, those things didn't stop me. I tried to mention about it to my mom a couple of times lately. And, she told about it to my dad. And, last night, when we're having dinner, he finally opened up the topic. Surprisingly, he changed his mind! He sounded ok with the idea of letting me go to study to China. He even said, "If that's what you really want, than I'll support you and your decision."

What he said totally made my day! It's one of the moments in life when I know what I want to do in life and having my love ones support me for it. And life, is about knowing what you want and work hard to make it come true. I sometime feel jealous with people who know what they want to do in life since young age.

One example is Wade Robson, the famous dancer and coreographer. He's been dancing since he's very young (around 6 years old maybe) and made a success in "Star Search" - an old reality show for talent search. He said he always knew that he wants to be a dancer when he grow up. And that's what he is now. Another example is a friend of mine. Her name is Deta. She's been singing since she's very young (a friend said since she was still 4 or 5) and now she's taking a major in singing or vocal (or whatever you name it) in one of the oldest uni in Holland. She sure is a diva will be. I'm sure of that. =)

The sooner you know what you want to do in life, the sooner you work hard to achieve it, the sooner you can live a better life. As in the movie I saw, when Tyler finally know what he wants, he worked hard to pursue it. From a rebellious teenage who grow up in foster home, he changed, show his talent, practice and admitted in a fine art school. He's having a better future for sure. While, for me, I hope my decision this time is what I really really want and can bring me a better future. Life is all about knowing what you want and work hard to have it your hand and before you realize it, you're livin' your dream!

counting my blessings

Good morning!
Dear Lord, thank you for another new week that you gave me... Hope I can live it better than last week... And on this sunny first day of the week I'd like to count - just a tiny part, tho! since I would never be able to count them all - my blessings from You and say thanks a lot for all of them... =)
Thank you for:
- superb mami & papi!
- my younger brother (who although sometimes becoming a pain in the ass! =P)
- a best friend (a crazy one!)
- my friends (especially "the tongkrongers" and "ani2")
- fabulous cousins (that was a nice "ngumpul2" last weekend!)
- om-om dan tante-tante (thanks, tante Lenna, udah inget bawain oleh2 dr Mesir! Hehehe...)
- everyone whom I love and who loves me (I'm living a life full of love here!)
- my jobs
- my crazy colleagues at work + genk makan siang di kantor (c u guys at 12!)
- health
- talents
- stuffs and things that I can have
- a house to live in
- knowledge
- two eyes, two ears, a nose, a mouth, ten fingers and ten toes (all of which work well, although I sometimes need to wear glasses)
- nice ex-boyfriend (hahaha... thanks for the nice talk on the phone last night! it's been a while since we talk that long on the phone, huh?)
- food to eat whenever I'm hungry and drinks to drink whenever I'm thirsty
- quick internet connection in my office!
- ....
and the list is endless!
Thank you... thank you... thank you...!!! Hope You'll never ever get bored of giving me this and that in life, Lord! =) Love ya!


A quote for this week:
"When upon life’s billows you are tempest tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done."
(Burl Ives - Count your blessings)

p.s. So... wanna count your blessings today?

I received a nice-touchy kinda email this morning from a friend. It sounds like this:

"LIFE is nothing without FRIENDS"

My Dad always told me that we could never measure our wealth by money but by our friends. I'm sure our friendship has made me rich!!! Tiny but wonderful seeds of blessings are sprinkled on earth each day... and I just caught one that's so nice and true... And it's you! I may have forgotten to say that I care. I may have failed to open up and share, but though no words have been spoken, my promise of friendship won't be broken. Time and distance are important between friends. When a friend is in your heart, they remain there forever. I may be busy, but I assure you, you are always in my heart! Friends are like the walls of a house. Sometimes they hold you up, sometimes you lean on them. But sometimes, it's enough to know they're just standing by. If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them; I'd be at the bottom to catch them. One tree can start a forest; one smile can start a friendship. One touch can show you care; one friend can make life worth living for.A smile makes us look younger... while friends make us feel stronger... and they make us enjoy life.